|I'm just insane...
||[Jul. 5th, 2004|02:59 am]
I’ve had enough and, I’ve decided to write this. I’m stupid which you must already know ‘Cause you totally take advantage of it. But, I am still a human And, Everything you have ever done to me has finally caught up with me. |
You’re a fucking bastard which YOU already know ‘Cause once again it’s something YOU take advantage of. You treat people (Me) like fucking shit… One’s who never in they’re life did a god damn thing to you (Once again me) . All I did was love you And, You have to make me feel like shit and be a fucking cock sucker to me.
Yeah, I’m stupid.. All those times you where mean to me I kept coming back. I kept calling. I’d be mad for a while And, Eventually get over it and call you. I’d break down and just wanna talk to you. THEN you’d be mean to me some more and the whole cycle would repeat it’s self. But, That’s me being stupid. That’s me thinking he can change… But, you’ll never change cause you’re a selfish Son of a bitch who has everything handed to him.
I bet your laughing now. But, if you wanna think about it you do. You DIDN’T Buy your car. John did. You told me that a thousand times. You don’t pay rent And, Something inside me thinks your bullshitting me when you say you’ve got your own place. I DON’T BELIEVE YOU. I can’t you’ve lied to me too many times. And I’m SUCH a big loser cause I don’t have a car… Cause I don’t have a G.E.D Well, Fuck you!! Maybe I would if I was given everything And, If I had faith in myself. But, I don’t because of people like YOU always putting me down.
You never loved me. And, If you did you had an extremely fucked up way of showing it. I loved with with everything I had. The sad truth is I probably always will. But, I also hate you. Sometimes I wish I would have never met you. But, Other times I think I’m greatful to you in some weird way. Cause I learned a lesson. But, I still hurt… I hurt everyday.. there are some days I miss you so bad. Some guy walks by with your cologne on Or, A green car drives Or, A song comes on….. That’s the worst. But, Memories are what I’ll keep Because you will not treat me like shit. I’d rather never see you again then feel like nobody after a three minute phone conversation with you.
So fuck you Mr Caldwell.. Fuck you And, I love you Good bye